GBS

I will miss them... 

"... we have received grace and apostleship to bring about the obedience of faith for the sake of his name among all the nations, including you who are CALLED TO BELONG TO JESUS CHRIST."

treadmills.

So, yesterday, I was running on the treadmill. I've heard many horror stories about people falling off of treadmills, slipping and falling, and busting open their chin or their heads. I'm always in fear that something like this will happen... 

Thank goodness this story does not end like that, but I will say I was close. I didn't fall COMPLETELY off of the treadmill, but instead I slipped. I braced myself thank goodness. My foot stepped halfway on the moving tread part, and the stable side. My hands reached out to the dashboard of the machine stabilizing my body from tipping over. I think the worst part about this is not that I tripped, but that I looked around and there was no one to laugh with! Everyone ignored me. I got a few glances, but no one smiled or laughed with me. What in the world? It was funny! I needed someone to laugh with me. But, I just smiled and laughed at myself instead. Which made me laugh even harder. Please promise me that when you see someone do something stupid like that not to ignore him or her, but to laugh with them. It makes the situation so much better. Please and thank you. :) 

encouraged.

"I know, O Lord, that the way of man is not in himself,

that it is not in man who walks to direct his steps."

Jeremiah 10: 23

Still clueless as to what my job and income will be starting next month. It's a little hard to swallow that I will be living with my parents again at the age of 24 with no knowledge of how long I'll have to be there. This reality has taken me in many different thoughts of frustration and questioning my own ears as well as the Lord's. If you were to read my journal, you'd see many exclamation points and question marks...

 "Are you listening?" 

"Can you hear me?" 

"Talk to me!"

"Do not hide yourself!"

Ha. Who am I to question if the omnipresent God is listening to me? However, I am continually coming back to my knees, eyes up, hands lifted acknowledging who He is and who I am not. It's the only place that makes sense. And in that place, there is overwhelming awe of His power and glory. I read this and am reminded that He is above and beyond anything I need. 

"There is none like you, O Lord;

you are great, and your name is 

great in might. 

Who would not fear you, O King

of the nations? 

For this is your due;

for among all the wise ones of the

nations

and in all their kingdoms

there is non like you...

But the Lord is the true God;

he is the living God and 

the everlasting King.

At his wrath the earth quakes,

and the nations cannot endure

his indignation...

It is he who made the earth by

his power,

who established the world by 

his wisdom, 

and by his understanding

stretched out the heavens. 

When he utters his voice, there is 

tumult of waters in the 

heavens,

and he makes the mist rise from the 

ends of the earth. 

He makes lightning for the rain,

and he brings forth the wind

from his storehouses."

Jeremiah 10: 6 - 13

being known.

Yesterday was a day just for me and Jesus. We hung out all day in my room. We played music and sang, we watched a movie or two, we read about Him, we laughed out loud and we talked intimately with each other. It was a day dedicated to learning about the other. There is something built inside of all of us to be known, to have someone fully and deeply know everything about us. We long for that, I long for that. Soon, my understanding of this grew yesterday as I read a section of the book "Knowing God" by J.I. Packer. It brought me to tears, and of course have to share it with you. 

"What matters supremely...is not... the fact that I know God, but the larger fact which underlies it - the fact that he knows me. I am graven on the palms of his hands. I am never out of his mind. All my knowledge of him depends on his sustained intiative in knowing me. I know him because he first knew me, and continues to know me. He knows me as a friend, one who loves me; and there is no moment when his eye is off of me, or his attention distracted from me, and no moment, therefore, when his care falters. 

This is momentous knowledge. There is unspeakable comfort - the sort of comfort that energizes, be it said, not enervates - in knowing that God is constantly taking knowledge of me in love and watching over me for my good. There is tremendous relief in knowing that his love to me is utterly realistic, based at every point on prior knowledge of the worst about me, so that no discovery can now disillusion him about me, in the way I am so often disillusioned about myself, and quench his determination to bless me. 

There is, certainly, great cause for humility in the thought that he sees all the twisted things about me that my fellow humans do not see (and I am glad!), and he sees more corruption in me than that which I see in myself, (which, in all conscience, is enough). There is however, equally great incentive to worship and love God in the thought that, for some unfathomable reason, he wants me as his friend, and desires to be my friend, and has given his Son to die for me in order to realize this purpose. We cannot work these thoughts out here, but merely mention them is enough to show how much it means to know not merely that we know God, but that he knows us."

Enough said, right?

I am known by God. It's a truth so hard to fully understand and acknowledge, however, so important to receive. 

so excited.

The new website for Grace Campus is up...

Check it out!

www.gracecampus.net

what stirs my affections?

Hundreds of students singing to their Heavenly Father

at the top of their lungs simply because He loves them. 

I love this.  

rainy days.

confession. 

secretly, i enjoy rainy days. they put me in a reflective mood. makes me move slower and take in all that the day has to offer. my heavenly father knows that i needed to slow down my mind today. so, thank you for the rain...